I will not choose fear
I will choose LOVE in this moment
My body allowing a full
and nourishing breathe
Embracing the light
that I know is there
Listening to the doves and
The trickling of the water
A knowing inside that
there are no accidents
There are no obstacles
that exist without solution
The script of this one imperfect life
is as perfect as the divinity
in a droplet of ocean water
pause my dear ones
breathe my dear ones
and choose LOVE.
Someday, perhaps a long while from now, we’re going to look back on this time and we’re going to see that we’d benefited from a powerful lesson. This lesson will allow the world to move upward in the journey of healing and growth. Though the lesson may not be the same for every individual. This is by far the craziest time that I have lived through. A pandemic spreading across the world causing not only illness but panic and palpitating fear of epic proportions. We have to remember that the world has seen much worse than this. Much crazier. I'm so sad for all of those that are struggling and more so for those who are dying. But there are a great deal of us are protected, safe and able to be close to our loved ones while we wait out the storm. For our friends, strangers and dear ones that are not so fortunate, we can choose love and share with them our wealth so that we can weather the storm together. Connect with them by any means still safe. Pointing fingers, blaming, and making fun of others for their reactions to this fear is not productive. Our reactions are opposite sides of the same coin. We are one. And we are in this together. Unfortunately, jokes and disgust in the way some of us have chosen to react are abundant and watching your Facebook feed is an emotional roller coaster like no other (though for the most part it was even before this pandemic). I’m working diligently on compassion and holding judgement as they only increase feelings of separation. Gripping on to opinion and news seems to strengthen my fear.
On the weekend that my yoga studio had to make the very tough decision to close its doors for now, I was participating in one of my weekends of teacher training. Outside there was certainly a bustle of fear taking over. We knew this by the abundance of news related to panic buying and hoarding. I’m usually one of the first ones to spin into a spiral of fear, but this time, I did not feel the same sense of fear that I usually do. I almost felt as though I was under-reacting. Though I realize now that it was really just a strong sense of denial. Then I couldn’t look at the news or social media because my chest would start to tighten. I have had to set some boundaries for when I would permit myself to look through social media so that my brain could also have some much needed down time. Worrying and stressing about what is going on is not going to make it pass faster and it's not going to bring a solution with all of the unknowns. I am very much trying to use my brain power for things that I can actually do and control rather than ruminate over those which I can’t.
I’m grateful for the work that I’ve done in the areas of personal and spiritual growth, which includes my yoga practice. Without it, it would have been so easy to lose perspective and fall into the fear stricken abyss entirely. 2020 will forever be known as the year that my family was releasing from the military, moving close to family and buying a house via FaceTime and electronic means as everyone was being forced to find ways to continue to do business but from a distance.
I cannot help but think that this event, this global event is part of a divine universal assignment to show us that in life, you can choose fear and separation (which ultimately makes the problem worse) or you can choose LOVE. We can share our resources, find stillness in our isolation, connect via technology, and pause to listen to the divine guidance that is available in the stillness.
This year is an opportunity to assess our true priorities. Our needs vs our wants. To re-discover what is actually important to us. Re-discover what we actually need to survive. Re-discover one another. Schools are closed, businesses are closing. Travel is closing. Each and every appointment or piece of business is being looked at as whether or not it is essential or not. Things that we used to connect and entertain long ago are seeing a reappearance. Puzzles, crafts, music, movies and laughing with friends and family (even if now by Facebook group chat). Parents are teaching their children and connecting with them in ways that they haven’t been able to in quite a while perhaps. Life has slowed down. Isn’t that what we’ve been pleading for? I wish this perspective did not have to come at such a cost. Growth and positive change always seems to come with such a painful beginning, at least in my experience.
But spring is coming my friends. These troubles will soon melt away. I cannot help but feel as though we will see the blossoming of a new beginning.
In the meantime,
Choose LOVE
Choose connection
Choose the values that are at the core of your being.
The light in me honours the light in you…
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